Nick Kyrgios dug deeper into his mental health battles and reveals his rock bottom in the second season of “Break Point.”
The controversial tennis star was admitted into a London psychiatric ward due to suicidal thoughts following Wimbledon in 2019, Australian media reported Wednesday, citing the second season of the Netflix docu-series.
“I was genuinely contemplating if I wanted to commit suicide,” Kyrgios said in the sixth episode titled “Belonging,” which will be released on June 21.
The Australian lost a tight four-setter to Rafael Nadal in the second round, but the loss had a much bigger impact on him than just his career record.
“’I lost at Wimbledon. I woke up and my dad was sitting on the bed, full-blown crying. That was the big wake-up call for me. I was like: ‘OK, I can’t keep doing this.’ I ended up in a psych ward in London to figure out my problems,“ said Kyrgios, who was also featured in the first season of “Break Point.”
The 10-year pro had been dealing with mental health struggles prior to being admitted to the psychiatric ward, so much so that during Wimbledon, the star wore a sleeve to cover up marks of self-harm.
“If you look closely, on my right arm you can see my self-harm,” Kyrigos, now 28, said in an Instagram post last year.
“I was having suicidal thoughts and was literally struggling to get out of bed, let alone play in front of millions.”
According to Kyrgios, attending Wimbledon back in 2019 was the lowest point of his career due to the pressure and expectations that came along with it, not only from fans and the media but also from himself.
“If I win Wimbledon, it’s like a middle finger to everyone,” Kyrgios said prior to his appearance at Wimbledon a year ago, when he lost in the finals to Novak Djokovic.
“I’m here to show that I’m one of the best players in the world. They say: ‘He can beat anybody, but he can’t really be consistent enough to push for a Grand Slam.’ I just want to shut everyone up.”
Kyrgios has said he has found mental stability since that scary time when he said he was abusing alcohol and drugs.
He missed the Australian Open this year with a knee injury.
Kyrgios then suffered a foot injury when his Tesla was stolen and his mom was held at gunpoint during a harrowing incident last month that forced him to withdraw from the French Open.
He returned to the court on Tuesday, losing to Wu Yibing at the Stuttgart Open.
Kyrgios appears on track to be ready for Wimbledon, which begins July 3 in England.
If you are struggling with suicidal thoughts or are experiencing a mental health crisis and live in New York City, you can call 1-888-NYC-WELL for free and confidential crisis counseling. If you live outside the five boroughs, you can dial the 24/7 National Suicide Prevention hotline at 1-800-273-8255 or go to SuicidePreventionLifeline.org.