Simone Biles grappled with her struggles in Tokyo after the Olympics were in rear-view.

Biles withdrew from the 2020 Olympics (which were actually held in 2021) after suffering from the “twisties,” a mental health block in gymnasts where they dangerously lose control of their bodies in mid-air.

Biles, 26, did an in-depth interview with Vanity Fair in which she revealed some of her perspectives on the aftermath.

“I wish I could sit here and tell you it was glorious,” Biles told the outlet about her time away from gymnastics following the Olympics.

“When I took a break after 2016, I had the time of my life. I was doing anything and everything. But after 2020, it was kind of depressing until I started therapy and got help. I felt like a failure. Even though I was empowering so many people and speaking out about mental health, every time I talked about my experience in Tokyo—because it obviously didn’t go the way that I had planned — it stung a little bit. But all in all, it was the best decision.”

She discussed the dichotomy of getting called a “quitter” by trolls with supporters who she said “tried to put me on this pedestal as a mental health advocate.”

“I was not okay with that,” Biles said, referring to the latter. “If I can be a lending hand and help people, then I’ll be open, honest, and vulnerable … but you cannot stick me in front of a crowd and say, ‘Do everything she’s doing.’”

Biles, who won four gold medals at the 2016 Olympics in Brazil, returned to gymnastics competition last year, and has said she is aiming to compete in the 2024 Olympics in Paris this summer.