Actress Sarah Snook recently took a moment to look back on those final days of table reads and filming that bookended her time on Succession.

In an interview with Variety, the actress revealed her first reaction to learning just how the hit series would end after four seasons: rather than having any of the Roy siblings take over Waystar Royco, Siobhan Roy’s husband, Tom Wambsgans, was going to be named CEO.

The Australian actress told Variety the very first thought that came to her head after she read the script was, “Are you fucking kidding me?”

“I never really considered that Tom becoming CEO is Shiv, by proxy, winning,” she explained. “For Shiv, that is so not a win! That is ‘I’m once again power adjacent. I’m not the winner.’”

The Succession actors received the scripts for the finale prior to learning that Season 4 would be the end. According to Snook, her co-star Matthew Macfayden was convinced the show could still continue even after Tom was named CEO. But Snook wasn’t convinced.

It wasn’t long until Succession creator and writer Jesse Armstrong announced that the show would be ending. “It was devastating,” she said.

Wrapping the HBO drama seemed to be an emotional moment for the actress and her co-stars. She recalled how she, Kieran Culkin, and Jeremy Strong treated the final scene they shot together – that iconic “meal fit for a king” moment in their mother’s kitchen – as a “personal sort of actor celebration.” Later on in the interview, Snook revealed she cried as she watched the season finale at home when it aired this past May.

“Because I was sad for Shiv,” she said. “She just tried so fucking hard, and ended up where she is — in this kind of gilded cage, next to the thing that she wants. And the journey’s not over for her. It’s not over for any of them, but still, she’s in the orbit of the CEO, and that will be really painful for her.”

She later added that she was likely also crying in mourning of the show ending.

“I’ll never have an opportunity to speak those lines, or get given new lines, new jokes, new worlds for Shiv and Roman to exist in together,” she said. “Just sadness for never getting a moment to play with these brilliant actors again.”

We’re sad about it, too.

For now, Snook’s stellar acting skills can be seen once again in the Netflix drama Run Rabbit Run and the Apple TV+ movie The Beanie Bubble.