Charlie Sheen isn’t holding anything back in his upcoming memoir The Book of Sheen and the new Netflix docuseries aka Charlie Sheen.

The actor is publicly opening up for the first time about his past sexual encounters with men — something he calls both “liberating” and long overdue.

“I flipped the menu,” Sheen says in his memoir when talking about exploring sex with men. He doubled down in an interview with People, adding: “I’m not going to run from my past, or let it own me.”

In aka Charlie Sheen, the actor gets candid about why it feels so freeing to finally discuss it openly. “It’s f**king liberating… [to] just talk about stuff,” he says. “It’s like a train didn’t come through the side of the restaurant. A f**king piano didn’t fall out of the sky. No one ran into the room and shot me.”

Speaking on Good Morning America, Sheen explained that his same-sex experiences began during his crack use. “That’s what started it,” he said. “That’s where it was born, or sparked. And in whatever chunks of time that I was off the pipe, trying to navigate that, trying to come to terms with it — ‘Where did that come from?… Why did that happen?’ — and then just finally being like, ‘So what?’ So what? Some of it was weird. A lot of it was fucking fun. And life goes on.”

Sheen has been making the media rounds ahead of the release of his book and Netflix series. At the docuseries premiere, he told Variety that his former drug dealer, Marco, once helped save his life by cutting narcotics with baking soda instead of stronger substances.

“It’s kind of the moon landing of a solution inside of that insanity,” Sheen said. “It just made sense to give that a shot.”

The Book of Sheen hits shelves September 9, while aka Charlie Sheen starts streaming September 10 on Netflix.